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Sat, Feb. 19th, 2005, 12:49 am
Ah well

Today was the last regular meet of my swim team career. Tear.

Then we had a swim team party afterwards and everyone played a game but there wasn't enough room to let me play, so I just kind of sat around all night while my girlfriend and friends played. Then I felt like shit and went driving around aimlessly, looking for some dam in the area so I could stare out at the sky (it was really pretty tonight), but I couldn't find the way there, and I got pulled over by some cop instead, and had to sit there for 10 or 15 minutes waiting for him and he asked me if there was a party up at this dam or if I had any alcohol and I was like "uhhhh no, I just wanted to look at the stars, it's really pretty outside tonight" so he gave me a warning and then I came home. Life is weird. I went from depressed to optimistic to somewhat content to upset and now to this, some odd contemplative state. I want to sleep now. Goodnight.

Fri, Feb. 11th, 2005, 11:57 pm

+ Rank moved up from 3rd to 2nd for the last semester before ranks closed, which = salutatorian. Wee!

+ Beat Naugatuck, who we hate and who beat us by 3 points last year...we killed em. I'm all pumped up!

Today was the awesome.

Mon, Feb. 7th, 2005, 11:24 pm
And again!

Yesterday was a lot of fun. Me and my girlfriend went out to eat some sandwiches and I bought a Mercury Rev CD and then she told me there was a state park lake nearby so we went to it and it was frozen over and there were people ice fishing all spread out but we walked across the lake and it was like the snowy beach in Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind and we went up on the dam and watched the waterfalls half encased in ice and it was fun. Then I went to my friend's super bowl get-together and we played DDR and I'm addicted now and everywhere I see there are arrows and I need to play like a bad crack habit or something I'd imagine. And I always won, and they made fun of me because I'm crazy on the dancepad but two of them watch Desperate Housewives! (seriously, double-U Tee Eff?) so we decided it was even. Except I'm not ashamed of my addiction, so there! And the best super bowl commercials were the ones with MC Hammer. Hehe.

Fri, Feb. 4th, 2005, 10:21 pm

Lost to our big rivals tonight by a measly 7 points. We DQed our best relay in the first event, and I bombed in my last relay...I guess a lot of little things didn't go our way and cost us. Depressing. All this pink hair and not even a win.

But I got accepted into another college today...full tuition at the College of New Jersey if I go. So of course my parents want me to go, but I'd rather go to like the University of Chicago or something if I get in. I guess we'll see.

Wed, Jan. 26th, 2005, 11:56 pm
Ah, where would I be without my sudden mood changes?

Today was pretty awesome hardcore. No school, but a piano lesson at 2:45, which is always a decent time, and then a trip to the local diner with a friend. Got some cherry danish or whatever that was alright, but not too fantastic. But it was a good trip. And then went up to Borders with a different friend and picked up a Charles Mingus album and a Murakami novel on whims, and a pair of jeans next door which I may or may not keep. And then some Panera Bread place which was cool because we sat in big leather chairs near this fireplace thing with our feet up and there were good sandwiches and it was fun and afterwards we were spinning around in the snow on the back roads in the car and that was good times. And then I got home and I realized I had work to do and 200 pages to read for Friday which I have to go read now so I have to get off and hope I don't fall asleep. Ta-ta.

Tue, Jan. 25th, 2005, 11:23 pm

+ Started reading "Who's Afraid of Virgina Woolf?" in English class today, which must be one of the funniest plays ever, and put me in a totally good mood for about an hour.

- Argued with my mother because she's borrowed money from me and hasn't paid it back but says she did. Right.
- Got something thrown at me in calculus, and then I threw it back and got threatened with a detention from the teacher who dislikes me and said nothing to the people who originally threw it. Right.
- Someone pulled the fire alarm and I had to stand outside in the super low temperatures freezing my ass off for 15 minutes.
- Girlfriend was distant around me today..."off in her own world" or whatever she said. I rarely see her as it is, and she's got some conference thingy for this Model UN thingy Thursday-Saturday so I probably will see even less of her soon enough. Yay.
- Swim practice today was the hardest. practice. ever.
- Some clown sat at the green light...then the yellow light...and finally left right before it turned red so nobody else could go. WHO DOES THIS?! OMGWTF.
- Got into another argument with my mother about who knows what. She's been real pissy lately, but they had their friends over for drinks tonight (is it that every other night already?) so whatever floats their boat I guess. At least they didn't come down here and distract me with their shouting and what not.
- Had to write a French paper. Always a negative.

I guess one positive is better than none, right? Or something. It's supposed snow tonight and then NO SCHOOL??? I have such sad highlights of my life. But! I came up with a topic to write my novel on. Or at least a topic to think about finally writing a novel on...whether I actually try starting it remains to be seen. I think my record is four pages before losing interest, but this one's more developed, so who knows?...Right.

P.S. This album = THE PHENOMENAL! And it's almost February, which means I can buy two albums! Two albums a month. Two albums. Maybe this is why I'm so super-blah lately? I should just go out and buy 19802938409823987874 albums so I have something to help pick me up, because Lord knows nothing I'm trying now seems to be working.

Mon, Jan. 24th, 2005, 12:22 am
Old lyrics and new resolutions

Today I was looking to see if maybe I'd saved my 100 favorite Pumpkins songs anywhere (which I didn't, unfortunately), and I found a whole bunch of old lyrics and poems I'd written. Wow. A lot of them were terribly bad and emo angsty. Maybe 3 were decent, the rest were terrrrrrrrrrible. Scary! My new resolution is to go to bed before midnight from now on. I could barely get up today I was so tired and it was like noon! I miss sleep already. I might've made bed before midnight but I stopped writing an essay to work on writing a sitcom on a whim with my friend. I have to read a few more pages of some Molière play for French class too, but I'll do that tomorrow. After this song I'm going to bed.

Thu, Jan. 20th, 2005, 09:11 pm
I don't even know

Well I got to sleep in til 10:30 today...only exam was at noon. Page stuck to another one and I didn't notice until she was collecting it, so the answers on that page may be a little...rushed. Oh well. College interview today. Attorney alumni guy from Northwestern, told me and my dad to go to the diner next door while he finished up with a client. Got a milkshake that was more egg-noggy than milkshake-y, and it was vanilla when I clearly asked for strawberry but that's ok because I like vanilla too. Afterwards my dad took me to some restaurant he used to go to as a kid but it was all changed and fancier now but they played 50s music and it was fun because we didn't even yell at each other. Big nor'easter coming Saturday? Might not see my girlfriend this weekend, won't see her next weekend...how unfortunate. Swim meet tomorrow. This is like the best song ever almost.

Wed, Jan. 19th, 2005, 04:05 pm
Random boringness...Boring randomness? Boring boringness? Random randomness?

Calculus is the devil.
My computer is totally lame.
One more exam to go...in French. But then maybe ice cream afterwards?
No swim meet today now (snow!), but there's still one Friday. Is swim season over yet?
I think I bit my tongue.
I need more post rock.

Mon, Jan. 17th, 2005, 11:36 pm
Another day in the life

Today was pretty terrible hardcore. A 4 hour practice and 2 hours of work = blah. And I did NO studying for my math exam Wednesday. I hate final exams. Today was a much better day mentally though. Not so up-and-down. Good.

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